Hello trust me if you are a anxious and worryfull person I KNOW!!!! exactly what you are going thru I have had an anxiety disorder for about 10+ years , a few years ago I was so scared I couldn`t hardly even travel far from our city cause my first panic attacks happened out of town so I couldn`t get it out of my head and still do to this day a bit that if I was to get to far away that fear and anxiety would return, Man its a terrible feeling, if you are having probs with this then the the right doctor could help you with this prob it did me,
Now I am going into the backcountry and riding in the mountains and I am excited to go and not scared and traveling all around our area on trips with the wife and sledding, one thing that helps is I am comfident in my sled and confident with my friend I ride with he really knows the areas we ride actually better than me that actually makes me anxious out there but alot of it is overcome by adrenaline and just having fun makes you not worry about it, 2nd to last ride out last season we were far back at the play spots we usually go to and my buddies mod tripple sled lost waterpump and we got extra water from luckily there was alot or rideres in this area that gave us water enought to get the sled back up to the main road then we towed it back with mine, Man I tell ya I was worrying to weather we had to leave his sled or was going to not even make it back that night, that made me more anxious than I had been in a while but I just had to force myself to relax and we made it back, we would of left the sled if it was to take to long or way after dark before we got back, ours wife wouldn`t think the worst cause we didn`t make it back that night.
Anyway, go have fun think calm and face your fears and push your limits but be smart about it, and realize there is risks in everything you do and things can happen,
I actually carry alot of survival stuff in my back back, for survival purposes and that actually helps alot in the worry knowing I am a step forward to the elements having a well prepared supplies and gear for a possibly stay overnight in the woods, which for myself is the biggest that scares me to I have some emergency medicine just in case I need a bit extra calming help.
P.s. if you are having trouble with anxiety problems and worries don`t be embarresed !! if you are if your not then sorry but you can pm me and I can help you out since I know exactly what its like, My riding friends know I`m anxious and there modivation and help actually calms me in the backcountry to.
By the way the fear you feel is Not stupid it is ever so real and I`m sure you know exactly what I`m talking about. Its very overwhelming
Good Luck, Wildcard